I was in the Mid-America motel in Salina Kansas
And I took some LSD that turned out to be considerably more than I thought I was taking
So much that I thought I was going to die
And so, I started to run out of the hotel room to call for help
I was naked, and I got to the door, and I imagined what would happen next when I went outside that door
“The naked old man in room 125 is crazy...” and it’s thorazine and all that
And I decided there must be easier ways to die than that
So, I decided to stay in the room
I sat down in front of the television set, which I had on, but the volume off
And I had a picture of my guru in the center of it
So that it was all coming out of his head
And I said to him, “Please let me die, I think I’m ready to die”
And I decided they’d find me the next day
And it would be interesting
I mean, they just find this guy
And I had all these questions I would ask of the universe written all over the room
So that my mind would fall on a question
And I thought, “That’s an interesting way to go”
It’s like 'Krapp's Last Tape'


So, I kept asking to die
And I watched that my mind kept slowing down
And slowing down, and slowing down, and slowing down
Until pretty soon I saw each thought arise, exist, and pass away
The next thought arise, exist, pass away
And then I saw there was a space between each thought
It was getting bigger and bigger as my mind penetrated more deeply
And then I went into the space between two thoughts
And there was a break in consciousness
And I wasn’t
And then the next moment, I thought
“Well, in that case, I can be anything I want”
And I came back
And then I started to recreate the universe after that


I started to see the entire universe out here
And all the suffering in the world
And it was like a vast ocean of suffering
And it was like they were all my children
All of it, all of it
And I started to reach out for it
And I started to gag
It was like I was retching
And there was
It was like I couldn’t handle absorbing it all into myself
And yet, I knew that’s what I was doing
Was taking everything into myself
And I came back
And then I started to recreate the universe after that
And I came back from that
And then I started to recreate the universe after that

And then I went into the space between two thoughts
And then the next moment, I thought
“Well, in that case, I can be anything I want”
And I came back from that

And then I started to recreate the universe after that
And it was like they were all my children
All of them

It was like I couldn’t handle absorbing it all into myself
And yet, I knew that’s what I was doing
Was taking everything into myself
And I started to reach out for it


Well in that case I can be anything I want
And I came back from that
It was like I couldn’t handle absorbing it all into myself
And yet, I knew that’s what I was doing
Was taking everything into myself
And then I went into the space between two thoughts
And then the next moment, I thought
“Well in that case I can be anything I want”